Lost and found

I found socks that I knit probably 3 years ago.   Almost done,  I just needed to cast off the toe.   I don't know why I hadn't finished them.   Forgot?   Wasn't what I wanted?   I finished them off tonight,  and wearing them to bed.

It's been a good Christmas so far,  with the usual stuff happening.  Kids not getting what they expected,  my usual frustration of not getting them what they wanted,  and feeling a bit at a loss as to how to change it for next year.   This year,  wanting to do something different,  I offered to take them skiing instead of tons of presents.   Well,  it backfired.   Instead I heard about how I didn't get an easy bake oven for Kass and how Cole didn't get tons of presents.   Linden said nothing,  beyond that he didn't want to go skiing.   I don't know what to do sometimes.   I think I might have it right.   And then never do.   Somehow I end up disappointing someone along the way.  Maybe there is something to be said about just buying gift cards.   But I just don't think it's right.   And in the end,  it's not about gift cards or getting the right gift.   In the end,  it's more that what is wanted,  on both sides,  just doesn't happen.

Finding the holidays difficult this year.   Started in August when I took time off with the kids,  and it's happening again.   Easier when I'm busy... No time to think.   Wanting what I don't have,  and probably won't get... Need to get back to work or have busier days.

Time

Kass went to a friends' place after school today.   Afterwards,  she said they were like her cousins.  I realized I've known the family 14 years. 14 whole years.   Doesn't seem right that time can go that quick or pass through without notice until looking back. Sometimes I wish it was like summers as a kid where a whole summer would last a lifetime.

5 more sleeps to Christmas.   Not excited.  Just not into it.

Kids go to their dad's tomorrow and back late Monday.   Will spend my weekend wrapping presents,  cleaning house,  working and maybe head up to the mountain.   Get a ski in or maybe snowshoe.   Been awhile and I need the time for me.

Remembering

Today,  after speaking with coworkers about the fact I knitted,  I remembered I had pictures on a blog of knitting,  and even more so,  remembered that I did at one time,  wrote a bit about my life.

So I went back to my writing and had a good look as to what happened and where I'm at today.  So interesting how time has gone on.

I'm lying here tonight,  finding it hard to fall asleep,  and remembered that I had this.   So... Here I am again.

No point in hashing out what I've done or been to these past two years. Given that it's almost exactly two years since I've written...

I had someone ask me the other day,  since the world might end on Friday,  what did I want to do?  And I couldn't come up with anything.   Granted,  there is much I want to change,  learn about,  grow,  experience and have in my life.   But,  when it comes down to the basics,  if things were to end as of Friday,  I would say I had a good time of it all.   Of course,  when I wake up Saturday morning.... I'm going to go back to looking at what I want to do differently.  Until then, I'll stay status quo for the next two days. But I have to say.... If the world does start to end on Friday,  I'm calling in sick to work.

Speaking of work,  it's been so busy... Juggling with work load and trying to get everything together before holidays.  I'm contemplating working a day next week to deal with work load and dealing with mommy guilt for not spending time with my kids on their days off.   But work pays for the mortgage so it's in our best interest for me to put the time in to it.   I just know that they're not kids forever.   And in the now,  just see me as not coming through on planned holiday time. Again.

But I might not have to worry about that past Friday anyways....

Falling off the wagon

Staying on track is freaking hard!  Thanks to the Grey Cup weekend I kept on the "why bother?" mindset for the past two days.  Of course work doesn't help when it's crazy busy and someone buys a big assed loaf of banana bread.  I haven't been able to exercise these past two days as I have the kids this week.

So, today is a new day...and I'll start eating good starting this morning.  Until I realized there's the Christmas decorating party at noon today with potluck.  Damn.

Counting up

I went to boxing and bjj this weekend (so nice to be back!) and the guys were talking about counting the number of rolls they get in a year.  A brown belt was talking about a good year is 600 rolls.  Guess the theory behind it is the more rolls you get in, the faster you improve, and you have to make a minimum amount of rolls to keep your skills set maintained.  Makes sense.  So, I'm going to start counting.  Saturday I got in 5, Sunday I got in 4.  So will wait and see how things go.

Went skiing for the first time this season and it was so nice to get up there!  And freaking hard work.  I forgot how much work it is.  Although I refuse to go slow and steady so maybe there's a problem right there.  I wouldn't burn myself out after 15 minutes and die from lack of oxygen.  I can zoom past the classic skiers but they always catch up to me when I'm dying after a hill.  Need to get my cardio used to long distance than short bursts.

The diet was killed this weekend after a girls night out...but what the hell...it's birthday celebrations so why not??

Winter wonderland

It's finally winter around here!  This is the view from my office.  Going to head out for skiing this weekend up at Sovereign.  Will figure out exactly how out of shape I am and if my elliptical actually does something for me.

I went to boxing class tonight.  It's been about a month since I've been there last.  I forgot how good it felt to hit something!  I really need to make sure that I go every Friday night.  It was a huge stress release, I feel better at the end of the week.

Still doing pretty good with the whole diet thing.  Found a new cereal online called Holy Crap.  Bought some with a girlfriend just because of the name.  And the fact that it's getting rave reviews and is taking 6-8 weeks for shipping.  It's gotta be good and I'm getting tired of having to cook my oatmeal and cereal every night so I can have something in the morning.

So close to the end of the week...

Another week of long days at work and not getting much done at home.  I'm looking forward to my deadlines being done and  having a chance to relax.  Tonight I took a bath and read a magazine.  It's been a long long time since I've done that last.

Spent 40 min on the elliptical today and been really good about my eating habits.  Well, except for the wine and the mango margarita yesterday!  But, I'm thinking if I'm good overall, what's a glass or two?  Just helps me relax. ;)

I've been thinking about getting back into running again but of course can't start it till the snow melts.  And of course, it's just a thought I've been having rather than action.  Nothing new there.

This morning's breakfast

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I'm baaaack!

It's been awhile. My blog is just for me and I'm the one that benefits to writing in it, and I realized that in my quest to lead a more balanced life, writing to my blog is probably part of working on that balance.

I've decided that I need to eat more healthy, keep track of  my exercise and, in general, just keep an eye on what I'm doing and where I'm going.  And this is a pretty easy way of accomplishing that goal.

For eating habits, I've cut out sugar, wheat, dairy, processed foods.  In the process I've lost 7 pounds in about two and half weeks and feel so so much better!

So...this morning I tried something new.  I wanted steel cut oats but didn't have time to cook them this morning.  So I put a third of a cup of steel cut oats with a cup of almond milk in the fridge with flaxseed and chia seeds (I was wondering when I was going to use those!) in the fridge overnight.  Topped with a banana and almonds this morning....yum!!  They're my new fave food.

Eating leftovers this afternoon for lunch.  Kidney beans with brown rice and tomatoes and lettuce.  Kind of a mock taco kinda thing.  Supper I'm hoping for chicken and salad.

The great thing about this is that I don't have cravings for sugar since I've done this.  Didn't expect that perk!

Heading to judo tonight in Kamloops. It's -20 today so the roads are clear and I don't have to worry about snow. It's a long drive for me today as I'm working in Kelowna but it's doable.  As soon as I'm done I'll head straight home so I can get a good night sleep.  Trying for 8 hours a day...always easier said than done!

Tis the season

I love this time of year...two weeks away from my birthday and a month away from Christmas. Everyone is waiting for the fresh snow, the upcoming family get togethers, the pretty lights on the houses and decorating for Christmas.

Things are finally slowing down at work and I've actually cast on for a sweater. I've finished one sleeve and working on another. That's been about a month in the works but at least I'm attempting to knit. Only problem is, it's a total lack of time that's stopping me.

We've had to move our youngest child out of French Immersion and place him into the school in our catchment area. Unfortunately, the French in the classroom just added to his learning issues and it made it really hard on him. He's in his second week of school at his new school, and in his words "It's really, really, really, really awesome!". Can't get much better than that from a 5 year old.

I'm thinking of heading to Burnaby for a judo tournament in December but I've discovered today that it's for the senior selection. Oh crap...that means really good people are out there competing. I'll get my ass kicked for sure. :)

Anyways, I'm off to the gym. Didn't have a chance to go today at lunch so I might as well do it now. Better late than never!